because you said you could play it backwards.

well you guys (year12s) have read the poem 'Funeral Blues' right? So there's this movie where they recite the poem. I swear, its so sad. The movie's called Four Weddings And A Funeral. Apparently it's a great movie, must watch it one day. I watched the scene with the poem today during something and I could feel the emotions coming out. Especially at the line 'I thought that love was forever: ''I was wrong'' ', and the line 'He was my North, my South, my East and West'. I'm developing a serious liking to that poem.

there's some songs that I'm seriously into right now. I feel like I could listen to them over and over again. I reckon I can feel how they feel when they wrote the lyrics (if its based on how they feel) and I can empathize. I'm sorry, HAHA I'm being so emo. I'm getting emotional super easily nowadays. I have NO idea why! Maybe its because I'm missing a lot of people who've left? Maybe. God, to think of it, I'd do anything to be able to visit each and every one of them. Starting with BC then Perth.

I'm seriously hating this whole time-zone thing.

Anyhoots, when I came online today, my reaction was HOLY motherfucking god. Oh my giddy giddy GOD. practically frozen in shock. Man of all days, of all days.

I looked at a certain black book a few days back, and its really reassuring really. It's funny to see how you felt during those days and how you felt about it at the time. I can remember what had happened, but I realised there were so many smaller details that I had forgotten. the times, the laughs, the CLICK. gosh its so unfair that I went off. why couldn't it spark off earlier! WHY. I still don't get how that could've happened at all, it doesnt make any sense. God, I miss it really bad. It just goes on bugging me nonstop. No point in living in the past.

how in the world did i let that stop me. what the fuck was i thinking! I still remember that day, those days actually (plural). !i@#s$%l^!@u#$%b^&j&^%$b!#.

the world is not sexy.
why is it that the only person who truly understands whats happening recently is on the other side of the world. sell-outs. b&b's. everything. i wonder if the world was like that twenty years ago.