a little black box.

Sorry, you dont have to read this. I just want some place to write it out.
I'm warning you.
Emo rant starts, now.

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Don't you love shutting yourself up in some place quiet and private sometimes? Somewhere where nothing matters. A place where you have nothing to hide from, no pretenses to put up, no masks to disguise what you feel. And sometimes, do you feel like no one understands you? It probably is my fault to begin with anyway, not letting anyone in. Have you ever felt like, you want someone who truly understands you, sees through all your pretenses and someone who knows you so well that they can break down your walls you put up. And like Edward says in Twilight, to 'see that flash of intuition in your eyes when you see through my pretenses'.

I want that place. I want to have my own safe harbour, where its just plain openness. Letting everything out. Like removing a damn thats trapping water. Water being the emotions.

Maybe I've found a place. Where reality just slips away. Hahaha I'm sure this happens with other people too. I get so engrossed in my book that everything around me, the surroundings, just doesnt matter in that moment. That actually happens when I read. It really does, I like to lock myself up in my room and read. Then everything just fades away into the background and its like the story, the characters and everything seems so tangible. Sometimes, its just so comforting to have a place to ignore everyone else. Ignore all the things reality and life throws at you.

But then that only happens with some books. What a pity.

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Okay, sorry about the post. Post over!